Erin Mizrahi
I’VE ALWAYS AND BY ALWAYS I MEAN SINCE 2018 BELIEVED MY MIDDLE AGE WOULD BE SPENT EXPLORING PSYCHEDELICS
Is this a cry for help / I don’t think so / I’m living in blue / but also green / but so much blue you’ve never seen so many shades of blue / there is vibration everywhere / build new institutions / don’t call them institutions / call them macaroons / call them abundance / set them in the mountains or near water so things can breathe and grow there / enmesh possibility but also manifest because you need to manifest so you don’t float off shouting possibilities / with hearts in your eyes and nothing in your stomach but memory / is this what regret looks like? / hey, take off your mask / I want to see if we’re connecting / I mean dancing / I mean what can we unearth together if we try / we can dig but not in a phallic way / like in a labyrinthine way into ourselves / and we could eat color because it is delicious and loud and surprisingly harmonic / what does my aura taste like / I’ve always wanted to know / you want to know why I’m like this? / it isn’t trauma / ok it’s probably trauma but I’ve put it on a plant-based diet and it no longer growls at me / it eats pulled taffy, chamomiles and date honey / I was frightened to see how its skin cleared up / meanwhile I’m just over here rolling around in retinol like it could save me from myself / the moon and I are friends / right now they’re super skinny and I’m a bit jealous / I watch their phases and remember to be kind to myself / I probably shouldn’t generalize / we’re all trying to escape something.